So, I've been thinking about liberal Stephen a bit, trying (just for fun) to reconcile him with his conservative counterpart in my own mind. If there's one major difference it's the conservative. v. liberal, of course, but they've lived their lives so differently that I think I was looking for some more common ground, aside from Jon.
I was really happy and simultaneously saddened to read:
There's no way Jon can tell him off for this — never let it be said that Jon Stewart would discourage charitable giving — but all at once it hits him that his friend is a black hole of guilt, which no amount of donation is ever going to fill.
There it is, for me. "Stephen," no matter what lifestyle, is well-intentioned. And the things he does to compensate for whatever hole of guilt he might have, whether it's repressed sexuality or fear or just trying to be everyone's friend or some great understanding man, it just sort of breaks your heart how he tries to be good.
Well, all that being said, I find Jon and this Stephen's dynamic interesting too, how Jon's private nature combined with this Stephen's pushing just equates to wary Jon.
And for the first time, I had to wonder, "What does Stephen even see in him?" It's not that Jon's bad; I can understand him, but I think it was during the pancake scene, where you know Jon had a blowjob last night (I giggled like a perverted dork when I finally figured out why his thighs would feel sandpapered, great way of putting it!) and then has this wonderful breakfast in bed and that kiss on the forehead, and it's just really damn. Because although I get the sense that Stephen would try to be as accomodating with all his lovers who like to be "treated like a gentleman," I don't know, maybe I'm reading too much into that gentler, but wonderful kiss on the forehead because Jon seems special.
I mean, I knew he was, if that's who Stephen doesn't want to share and thinks about whiel masturbating, but this is a newer Stephen, this liberal guy, and I just have to wonder what makes Mr. Turtle so appealing to him.
Twice Stephen gave Jon birthday gifts in this fic; I wonder if Jon ever gives him anything or what.
Sorry to keep musing about all this and to do it so badly, but the fic is sweet, at least to me. <3 (You already know how bad I am at reviews.)
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I was really happy and simultaneously saddened to read:
There's no way Jon can tell him off for this — never let it be said that Jon Stewart would discourage charitable giving — but all at once it hits him that his friend is a black hole of guilt, which no amount of donation is ever going to fill.
There it is, for me. "Stephen," no matter what lifestyle, is well-intentioned. And the things he does to compensate for whatever hole of guilt he might have, whether it's repressed sexuality or fear or just trying to be everyone's friend or some great understanding man, it just sort of breaks your heart how he tries to be good.
Well, all that being said, I find Jon and this Stephen's dynamic interesting too, how Jon's private nature combined with this Stephen's pushing just equates to wary Jon.
And for the first time, I had to wonder, "What does Stephen even see in him?" It's not that Jon's bad; I can understand him, but I think it was during the pancake scene, where you know Jon had a blowjob last night (I giggled like a perverted dork when I finally figured out why his thighs would feel sandpapered, great way of putting it!) and then has this wonderful breakfast in bed and that kiss on the forehead, and it's just really damn. Because although I get the sense that Stephen would try to be as accomodating with all his lovers who like to be "treated like a gentleman," I don't know, maybe I'm reading too much into that gentler, but wonderful kiss on the forehead because Jon seems special.
I mean, I knew he was, if that's who Stephen doesn't want to share and thinks about whiel masturbating, but this is a newer Stephen, this liberal guy, and I just have to wonder what makes Mr. Turtle so appealing to him.
Twice Stephen gave Jon birthday gifts in this fic; I wonder if Jon ever gives him anything or what.
Sorry to keep musing about all this and to do it so badly, but the fic is sweet, at least to me. <3 (You already know how bad I am at reviews.)