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Entry tags:
Mix - Fake News: Trading Your Memories For Fortune And Fame
Medium: Television
Fandom: The Colbert Report
Subject: Jon/trans!"Stephen"
Warnings: Character death; major spoilers for the fic
Title: Trading Your Memories For Fortune And Fame
Soundtrack for the "present" half of Clover and Shadows. In which Stephen is living full-time as male, achieving undreamed heights of professional success, constantly missing the cousin who died in Chicago, and avoiding a relationship with Jon for reasons Jon can't even begin to guess.
As before, cover features this art by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
omelton.
+ Bryan Adams | Summer of '69 +
(Chicago in retrospect, in all its exhilaration and despair.)
Me and some guys from school
Had a band and we tried real hard...
Oh, when I look back now
That summer seemed to last forever
And if I had the choice
Yeah - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life
Man we were killing time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothing can last forever
And now the times are changin'
Look at everything that's come and gone
Sometimes when I play that old six-string
I think about you, wonder what went wrong
+ Armor For Sleep | The Truth About Heaven +
(Transition should have been fantastic - but he'd give it up in a heartbeat to have her back.)
Found my way back in the dark tonight
Couldn't wake up, not right next to you
I traded forever to just hear you say the sound of my name
But thats not why I'm here
I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I want to find you so bad
To let you know I'm miserable up here without you
+ Poison | Fallen Angel +
(He careens towards fame and fortune, so fast that he can almost pretend he doesn't miss the family who knew him as a girl.)
Now she found herself in the fast lane livin' day to day
Turned her back on her best friends, yeah
And let her family slip away
Just like a lost soul caught up in the Hollywood scene
All the parties and the limousines
Such a good actress, hiding all her pain
Trading her memories for fortune and fame
Just a step away from the edge of a fall
Caught between heaven and hell
Where's the girl I knew a year ago?
+ Yellowcard | Ocean Avenue +
(He can still hear her voice, though, and those memories never stop aching.)
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both eighteen and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night...
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
+ John Parr | St. Elmo's Fire (Man In Motion) +
(But he's got his own show now. There are even moments when he's really, truly happy.)
I can see a new horizon
Underneath the blazing sky
I'll be where the eagle's flying
Higher and higher
Gonna be your man in motion
All I need's a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin'
St. Elmo's Fire
Burning up
Don't know just how far that I can go
Soon be home
Only just a few miles down the road
I can make it, I know I can
You broke the boy in me
But you won't break the man
+ Stevie Nicks & Don Henley | Leather and Lace +
(When it comes to Jon, he alternately pushes and pulls, needs and recedes. Jon suspects there's something going on with him. Jon doesn't know the half of it.)
I have my own life
And I am stronger than you know
But I carry this feeling
When you walked into my house
That you won't be walking out the door...
Stay with me, stay
I need you to love me
I need you today
Give to me your leather
Take from me my lace
You in the moonlight
With your sleepy eyes
Could you ever love a man like me?
+ Dar Williams | When I Was A Boy +
(Taking the first hesitant steps: letting Jon into his photo album.)
I won't forget when Peter Pan came to my house, took my hand
I said I was a boy; I'm glad he didn't check...
When I was a boy, I scared the pants off of my mom
Climbed what I could climb upon
And I don't know how I survived
I guess I knew the tricks that all boys knew
And you can walk me home, but I was a boy, too
When I was a boy, see that picture? That was me
Grass-stained shirt and dusty knees
And I know things have gotta change
They got pills to sell
They've got implants to put in, they've got implants to remove
But I am not forgetting
That I was a boy too
And like the woods where I would creep, it's a secret I can keep
Except when I'm tired, except when I'm being caught off guard
I've had a lonesome awful day, the conversation finds its way
To catching fire-flies out in the backyard
And I tell the man I'm with about the other life I lived
+ Anderson Brueford Wakeman Howe | Quartet +
(Realizing that he wants to let Jon into his heart. Not to mention his arms.)
I wanna learn more about you
We haven't spoke in quite a while
And all of the dreams that come true
So surprising how it catches you
I wanna learn more about me
I've been sinking like a setting stone
And now the dreams are realizing it's true
That's why I wanna learn about you
I wanna know more about life
And things that can fly in between my mind
I wanna change all that I dream about
My waking and my so many lives, oh my...
Come into my world, hold me in your arms
There's a mystery to the touch
How it heals so when we're broken...
Only when we touched did it all come true
How you understand my life
How you helped me with your light
+ Mundy | Whenever, Wherever +
(And, yes, there's sex. Which is no less sensual for all that he's wearing a shirt the whole time.)
Lucky that my lips not only mumble
They spill kisses like a fountain
Lucky that my breasts are small and humble
So you don't confuse them with mountains...
Whenever, wherever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and you'll be near
And that's the deal my dear
+ Lifehouse | First Time +
(It's terrifying. And exhilarating. And healing.)
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide
Looking at you
Holding my breath
For once in my life
I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance
Letting you inside...
Maybe I'm wrong
I'm feeling right
Whene'er I'm alone
With you tonight
Like being in love with you
For the first time
+ Celine Dion | My Heart Will Go On +
(There's always going to be a place in his heart for her.)
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone...
You are safe in my heart, and
My heart will go on and on
+ Genesis | Afterglow +
(But it turns out there's room in there for Jon, too.)
Like the dust that settles all around me
I must find a new home
The ways and hopes that used to give me shelter
Are all as one to me now
But I, I would search everywhere
Just to hear your call
You walk upon stranger roads than this one
In a world I used to know before
I miss you more
Then the sun reflecting off my pillow
Bring in the warmth of new life
And the sound that echoes all around me
I caught a glimpse of in the night
But now, now I've lost everything
I give to you my soul
BONUS
+ Lindsay Lohan | Drama Queen (That Girl) +
(Charleston in retrospect, this time from a perspective of health, comfort, and happiness.)
That girl was a one-time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she'll find herself
'Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back when you won't believe
That girl was me
+ (fanfic soundtrack downloads) +
Fandom: The Colbert Report
Subject: Jon/trans!"Stephen"
Warnings: Character death; major spoilers for the fic
Title: Trading Your Memories For Fortune And Fame
Soundtrack for the "present" half of Clover and Shadows. In which Stephen is living full-time as male, achieving undreamed heights of professional success, constantly missing the cousin who died in Chicago, and avoiding a relationship with Jon for reasons Jon can't even begin to guess.
As before, cover features this art by
omelton. + Bryan Adams | Summer of '69 +
(Chicago in retrospect, in all its exhilaration and despair.)
Me and some guys from school
Had a band and we tried real hard...
Oh, when I look back now
That summer seemed to last forever
And if I had the choice
Yeah - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life
Man we were killing time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothing can last forever
And now the times are changin'
Look at everything that's come and gone
Sometimes when I play that old six-string
I think about you, wonder what went wrong
+ Armor For Sleep | The Truth About Heaven +
(Transition should have been fantastic - but he'd give it up in a heartbeat to have her back.)
Found my way back in the dark tonight
Couldn't wake up, not right next to you
I traded forever to just hear you say the sound of my name
But thats not why I'm here
I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I want to find you so bad
To let you know I'm miserable up here without you
+ Poison | Fallen Angel +
(He careens towards fame and fortune, so fast that he can almost pretend he doesn't miss the family who knew him as a girl.)
Now she found herself in the fast lane livin' day to day
Turned her back on her best friends, yeah
And let her family slip away
Just like a lost soul caught up in the Hollywood scene
All the parties and the limousines
Such a good actress, hiding all her pain
Trading her memories for fortune and fame
Just a step away from the edge of a fall
Caught between heaven and hell
Where's the girl I knew a year ago?
+ Yellowcard | Ocean Avenue +
(He can still hear her voice, though, and those memories never stop aching.)
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both eighteen and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night...
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
+ John Parr | St. Elmo's Fire (Man In Motion) +
(But he's got his own show now. There are even moments when he's really, truly happy.)
I can see a new horizon
Underneath the blazing sky
I'll be where the eagle's flying
Higher and higher
Gonna be your man in motion
All I need's a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin'
St. Elmo's Fire
Burning up
Don't know just how far that I can go
Soon be home
Only just a few miles down the road
I can make it, I know I can
You broke the boy in me
But you won't break the man
+ Stevie Nicks & Don Henley | Leather and Lace +
(When it comes to Jon, he alternately pushes and pulls, needs and recedes. Jon suspects there's something going on with him. Jon doesn't know the half of it.)
I have my own life
And I am stronger than you know
But I carry this feeling
When you walked into my house
That you won't be walking out the door...
Stay with me, stay
I need you to love me
I need you today
Give to me your leather
Take from me my lace
You in the moonlight
With your sleepy eyes
Could you ever love a man like me?
+ Dar Williams | When I Was A Boy +
(Taking the first hesitant steps: letting Jon into his photo album.)
I won't forget when Peter Pan came to my house, took my hand
I said I was a boy; I'm glad he didn't check...
When I was a boy, I scared the pants off of my mom
Climbed what I could climb upon
And I don't know how I survived
I guess I knew the tricks that all boys knew
And you can walk me home, but I was a boy, too
When I was a boy, see that picture? That was me
Grass-stained shirt and dusty knees
And I know things have gotta change
They got pills to sell
They've got implants to put in, they've got implants to remove
But I am not forgetting
That I was a boy too
And like the woods where I would creep, it's a secret I can keep
Except when I'm tired, except when I'm being caught off guard
I've had a lonesome awful day, the conversation finds its way
To catching fire-flies out in the backyard
And I tell the man I'm with about the other life I lived
+ Anderson Brueford Wakeman Howe | Quartet +
(Realizing that he wants to let Jon into his heart. Not to mention his arms.)
I wanna learn more about you
We haven't spoke in quite a while
And all of the dreams that come true
So surprising how it catches you
I wanna learn more about me
I've been sinking like a setting stone
And now the dreams are realizing it's true
That's why I wanna learn about you
I wanna know more about life
And things that can fly in between my mind
I wanna change all that I dream about
My waking and my so many lives, oh my...
Come into my world, hold me in your arms
There's a mystery to the touch
How it heals so when we're broken...
Only when we touched did it all come true
How you understand my life
How you helped me with your light
+ Mundy | Whenever, Wherever +
(And, yes, there's sex. Which is no less sensual for all that he's wearing a shirt the whole time.)
Lucky that my lips not only mumble
They spill kisses like a fountain
Lucky that my breasts are small and humble
So you don't confuse them with mountains...
Whenever, wherever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and you'll be near
And that's the deal my dear
+ Lifehouse | First Time +
(It's terrifying. And exhilarating. And healing.)
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide
Looking at you
Holding my breath
For once in my life
I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance
Letting you inside...
Maybe I'm wrong
I'm feeling right
Whene'er I'm alone
With you tonight
Like being in love with you
For the first time
+ Celine Dion | My Heart Will Go On +
(There's always going to be a place in his heart for her.)
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone...
You are safe in my heart, and
My heart will go on and on
+ Genesis | Afterglow +
(But it turns out there's room in there for Jon, too.)
Like the dust that settles all around me
I must find a new home
The ways and hopes that used to give me shelter
Are all as one to me now
But I, I would search everywhere
Just to hear your call
You walk upon stranger roads than this one
In a world I used to know before
I miss you more
Then the sun reflecting off my pillow
Bring in the warmth of new life
And the sound that echoes all around me
I caught a glimpse of in the night
But now, now I've lost everything
I give to you my soul
BONUS
+ Lindsay Lohan | Drama Queen (That Girl) +
(Charleston in retrospect, this time from a perspective of health, comfort, and happiness.)
That girl was a one-time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she'll find herself
'Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back when you won't believe
That girl was me
+ (fanfic soundtrack downloads) +
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