[Mix] Night Vale | Cecil/Carlos | G | When Can I Say That I Love You (and not have it be a lie?)

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Title: When Can I Say That I Love You (and not have it be a lie?)
Fandom: Welcome to Night Vale
Subject: Cecil/Carlos
Rating: G

A mix for a relationship in trouble.

Carlos keeps shifting goalposts without being upfront about why. Cecil is pointedly in denial about the hints that something's wrong. They're stuck in a holding pattern of not saying what they mean, and having what they say ring increasingly hollow.

Title is from the lyrics of Episode 67's weather.

When Can I Say That I Love You (and not have it be a lie?) from erinptah.

♦ (Loneliness, and the slow, creeping realization that Carlos probably doesn't want to come back, but is refusing to admit it.) ♦

Erasure | Oh L'Amour
Oh love of my heart / Why leave me alone / I'm falling apart / No good on my own

Montgomery Gentry | Lonely and Gone
If she talked about leaving, I wasn't listening / If she showed me a sign, well I never saw / Never heard a house sound, so loud with memories / Where there used to be a happy home

Rooney | When Did Your Heart Go Missing?
I'm waiting, waiting for nothing / You're leaving, leaving me hanging / We had a little dream / Buy a house, settle down, do our thing / But you disappeared on me

Boys Like Girls | Heels Over Head
I got a first class ticket to a night all alone / And a front row seat up right by the phone / And when you hit the coast, I hope you think of me / And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be


♦ (The healthy thing to do would be to confront Carlos about the broken promises and shifting goalposts, and insist that they put their cards on the table...so naturally, instead, Cecil does all this stewing privately in the back of his mind.) ♦

Relient K | Come Right Out And Say It
Thought this would turn out so well / But I'm beginning to see that instead it's trouble / Into a pattern we fell / Of prolonging the inevitable / Why don't you come right out and say it: / What it is you're thinking, though I'm thinking it's not what I wanna hear

Lifehouse | Halfway Gone
You got one foot out the door / And choking on the other / Always think there's something more / It's just around the corner / Talk, talk is cheap / Give me a word you can keep

Heart | Stranded
You said that you'd always care / I just turned around and there's nobody there / Don't leave me like this, don't leave me stranded


♦ (And goes on a trek into a mysterious unknown desert with all those unaddressed issues still hanging overhead.) ♦

Rosie Thomas | Much Farther To Go
And I, I have much farther to go / I'm so confused / I should just kick my hands together and go home / But I lost my way when I lost you

Kyle Fleming | When Can I Say That I Love You
When can I call you sweetheart / And not have it sound contrived? / When can I say that I love you / And not have it feel like a lie?


♦ (This is not a recipe for something that will end well.) ♦

Dan Fogelberg | Make Love Stay
But mystery's a thing not easily captured / And once deceased not easily exhumed / Now that we love, now that the lonely nights are over / How do we make love stay?

Human League | Life On Your Own
I guess you think I ran out / But that's not true / Other people settle down; I never do / We'll always be a world apart / I'll travel on, but I will be true

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