Mix: Fake News - After The Rain

[ptahrrific]

Medium: Television
Fandom: The Colbert Report
Subject: Jon(/"Stephen")
Title: After The Rain

A character/pairing soundtrack for the revised State of Grace. When Jon fell in love, neither of them could have predicted the storm it would set off. He's determined to see Stephen through it, but Jon's going to have to learn to take care of himself along the way if he plans to make it out the other side.

Clean cover art.

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DAN FOGELBERG | LONGER
Jon may be detached and snarky on the surface, but when he loves, it runs deep. He's not interested in leaving his wife, or having any secondary relationship that doesn't last; he just wants forever with both of them.

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than there've been stars up in the heavens
I've been in love with you

Stronger than any mountain cathedral
Truer than any tree ever grew
Deeper than any forest primeval
I am in love with you...

Through the years as the fire starts to mellow
Burning lines in the book of our lives
Though the binding cracks
And the pages start to yellow
I'll be in love with you

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VIENNA TENG | BETWEEN
There's something going on in Stephen's head, and it's not long after their bond goes romantic that it starts wreaking havoc on both of them.

We are not together here
Though we lie entwined
To make room for the other presence
We both draw back in our minds...

There once was a time I was sure of the bond
When my hands and my tongue and my thoughts were enough
We are the same but our lives move along
And the third one between replaces what once was love...

There's no denying we feel the third one
We do
I'm tired of hiding and so are you

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CHEAP TRICK | THE FLAME
The stress hits Jon hard, but he's in this for the long haul.

I'm going crazy, I'm losing sleep
I'm in too far, I'm in way too deep
Over you, you'll always be the one
You were the first, you'll be the last

Wherever you go, I'll be with you
Whatever you want, I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone to lay your heart and head upon
Remember, after the fire, after all the rain
I will be the flame

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DEFAULT | COUNT ON ME
At first, when Stephen finally begins to open up about what's going on, Jon is willing to offer him anything he needs.

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart
Well you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

I wonder why nobody's waiting on you
I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times
I'd love to be the light that finds you
I see a silver lining on your cloud
I'll pick you up whenever you fall down
Just take my hand and I will help you stand

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NOTRE-DAME DE PARIS | DÉCHIRÉ
It's his wife who pulls him back. Jon may have enough love for both of them, but his time and energy are limited, and he can't help anyone if he lets himself fall apart in the process.

Déchiré
Je suis un homme partagé, déchiré
Entre deux femmes que j'aime
Entre deux femmes qui m'aiment
Faut-il que je me coupe le coeur en deux ?

Déchiré
Je suis un homme dédoublé, déchiré
Entre deux femmes que j'aime
Entre deux femmes qui m'aiment
Est-ce ma faute si je suis un homme heureux ?

(Torn apart
I am a man divided, torn apart
I want two women's love
Two women want my love
I don't know how to cut my heart in two

Torn apart
I am a man in pieces, torn apart
I want two women's love
Two women want my love
I'm just glad I have love enough for two)

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KELLY CLARKSON | BEAUTIFUL DISASTER
Sure enough, Stephen has more damange than Jon can or should try to repair on his own.

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in...

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him...

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

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BETHANY JOY LENZ | HALO
In setting boundaries, Jon has it coming from both sides. Part of Stephen is hoping for a perfect rescuer, and there's no way Jon can live up to that.

I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there'd be sunshine every day
I'll give you everything I have
The good, the bad...

I always said that I would make mistakes
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace
I'll fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
So pull me from that pedestal
I don't belong there

One thing is clear
I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here,
You wouldn't say so, you wouldn't say so if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you

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ALANIS MORISSETTE | NOT ALL ME
And on the other side, Jon has to walk Stephen back from projecting past abusers onto him.

I wear their face on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen for your blindly-fueled rage
I bear the brunt of your long-buried pain
I don't mind helping you out but I want you to remember my name...

Lest I find my voice, find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I state my limit and take on only what is mine to
We are a team, I'm here to help mend and re-seam
All I trigger unknowingly a job I hold in high esteem

It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you
But I won't take it all on
I'll take only some of it

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GARY ALLAN | I JUST GOT BACK FROM HELL
Stephen, through the worst of it but with a lot of healing still to go, begins to appreciate the heartache he's put Jon through along the way.

I just got back from Hell, and I guess to tell the truth
Well, I've been mad at everyone, including God and you
When you can't find no one to blame, you just blame yourself
And I know I'll never be the same, I just got back from Hell

Forgive me if I had any part, if I ever broke your heart in two
Forgive me for what I didn't know, for what I didn't say or do...

I can't say that I'm doin' great, but I think I'm gettin' well
Gonna let the world know I'm alive and I just got back from Hell

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LIBBY RODERICK | HOW COULD ANYONE
Jon doesn't think less of him for a second of it.

How could anyone ever tell you
You were anything less than beautiful?
How could anyone ever tell you
You were less than whole?
How could anyone fail to notice
That your loving is a miracle?
How deeply you're connected to my soul?

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ANTHONY RAPP | JUST SOME GUY
After working so hard to pull himself out of the perfect-rescuer fantasy, Jon has a hard time appreciating how special he truly is to Stephen.

So he's holding me in his arms, and he's giving me sweet little kisses
And he's telling me he'll never harm me, and he's whispering how wonderful this is
And I tell him that I love him, and I tell him I'll be true
And I've said these things to other boys, but right now the old words feel so new
And I ask him, "How did I get so lucky? I didn't even have to try."
"I don't know," he says, "I'm nothing special, I'm just some guy...."

And I say, "Your heart is so big, and your mind's so alive,
You have passion and freedom and vision and drive,
You have so much to give and you give it with care,
You have helped me to heal, and there's nowhere I won't go with you."

And he's holding me, now, even tighter, and he's breathing me in
And he's telling me again that he loves me, and he's tracing his fingertips over my skin
And I'm happier now than I've ever been, and I'm hoping this feeling won't die
And if he says he's just some guy, that's fine, but the truth is, he's mine

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ADAM SANDLER | GROW OLD WITH YOU
They're both still in it for forever. Unglamorous parts and all.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you...

I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold
Need you, feed you, even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you

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BONUS | CLINT BLACK | LIKE THE RAIN

I never liked the rain until I walked through it with you
Every thunder cloud that came was one more I might not get through
But on the darkest day there's always light and now I see it too...
That it's always good and when the flood is gone we still remain
Guess I've known all along I just belong here with you, falling

Like the rain I have fallen for you, and I know just why
You liked the rain, always calling for you, I'm falling for you now


BONUS | TODD AGNEW | GRACE LIKE RAIN

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see, so clearly

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, they're washed away

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Comments

[politicette]

This is some good music and :3 it tells a very sweet story indeed.

[stellar_dust]

Yay, awesome! I still plan to listen to the old soundtrack too, though. :D

[gaudy-night.livejournal.com]

Ooh, a new mix! Can't wait to give it a listen! Thank you!

[gaudy-night.livejournal.com]

"The file you are trying to access is temporarily unavailable."

Ah, I'll try again later.